Let's Do It!

Here is my second attempt to become a blogger. The last time I lack the discipline to do the up keep. This blog will be me documenting this journey through life and all the twist and turns that come my way. As the title says Let’s Do It!

I was journaling tonight and this is what I’ve been going through the last couple of months.

I need to get back to the basics. I am trying to read through Isaiah right now and it just isn’t working. I need to get back to the ultimate sacrifice and that love God has for me. I think it is time to read through the the New Testament. I think my goal will to have read the entire new testament by the end of February. I know that is over a month, but I want to soak up His world. Not just read it to meet the end goal of checking off a box in my Christian walk. I need to get back to the relationship part of my faith. Just like with my friends, if I don’t put in the energy to maintain the relationship, it slowly starts to fade away. The big difference is God isn’t the one who fades away it is me. He has done all the work on his end to be in this relationship by sacrificing his son to atone for my sins, bridging the gap and all I need to do is pursue Him. Why is that so hard? God gives us everything we need, maybe not everything we want including the hard times. Yet we choose to run. I find that crazy. The one person who can give us everything we need we tend to run from. And here lies the question, why am I running right now?

I am deployed and not surrounded by a strong christian community like I was in Okinawa, and I was bitter to begin with about this deployment. But instead of turning to the one who gives me comfort I pout and stomp my feet like a toddler/teenager in a tantrum. Why is that? I guess it goes to the question mentioned before. Why am I running away right now? Well I have about 5 plus months/11 paychecks here in Afghanistan to figure it out and turn around and start running towards my comforter and provider. Let this part of my faith marathon begin.