Just Angry

Today I am angry. I don't know why, but I just woke up in a horrible mood. It probably didn't help that my roommate here kept turning on and off the lights all morning. As I was thinking about it during a very boring flight out here, which is a good thing as far as my mother is concern. I think I am just angry because there are so many unknowns in my life right now. I don't know when I am coming home from this deployment, word on the street is still Julyish. I have no clue where I am going next as far as bases are concern. I feel like I should stay in Okinawa for another year, but yet I'm pulled to go to Beale AFB in Cali so I can be closer to my family. Like I said so many unknowns and it is really frustrating me. But then as I was reading the Sermon on the Mount in Matthew this passage stuck out to me "Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes" Matthew 6:34 (Message). Another reminder that I need to trusts God in all of this. He knows when I am coming home and where the best place for me to live after I get back. I need to focus on today and the blessing I have received. Nothing horrible happened on my flight, I landed at the same place I took off from and I received a care package from my mom. I have amazing friends and family who are praying for me, to whom I am extremely grateful. I guess at the end of the day, I have a lot of good things in my life right now and I need to stop focusing on the negative.