Sunday, March 25, 2012
In Time
It's been awhile since I've written anything. I think it is partly because I've been in this internal struggle that if I ignore long enough it would go away. Truth is they just sink deeper and deeper into my being. Somedays I think it would just be easier to revert back to my old ways. I know there are people waiting for me to fall back into that life and laugh and tell me they told me so. But in truth I don't think I would be happy with who that would make me as a person. But in turn I don't believe I'm truly happy with where I am at right now. This has nothing to do with my physical location, granted it sucks, but my mental, spiritual and emotional being are not in line. First off I'm not depressed, mom stop worrying. I think I just need to start figuring out what kind of person I want to be and where that takes me. Right now Eyes Open by Taylor Swift explains exactly how I feel right now. I guess all I am trying to say is I'm confused and trying to figure it out.
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It's hard to be on your own with no support like you had here at the Harbor. We all become more vulnerable when we're not connected to the body. I'll be praying that you can renew your identity in Christ and that your confusion will melt away as you remember that you are claimed by God as his priceless daughter and he is faithfully completing his masterpiece in you. Your not alone, sister, not even in your struggles. Love you. -Michelle
ReplyDeleteJust listened to the song. :( It's a good song for The Hunger Games movie, I'm just sad that can be said for you too. I'm praying that the Lord will lead you not into temptation but deliver you from evil, for a start.
ReplyDeleteI understand that this people are all around you, and their voices are loud, but we are here and we support you. Please don't allow their voices to be the only ones you hear. We know that the Lord's strength is greater and His words are more powerful.
ReplyDeleteI have been praying that during your time away that the Lord would help you to see Him more and love Him during times of blessing and tribulation.
Romans 5:1-5